life update

[salixbabylon]

Blech. School has started again. I spent 8 hours on Friday in a class on Outreach to Ethnically and Racially Diverse Communities learning all about white privilege. Two days later, I still feel incredible guilt and frustration and helplessness. It's so frustrating to feel like you should do something, but not even know where to begin. Other than my assisting patrons, being aware of my own implicit racism, and trying to treat everyone not just equally, but actually working to level the playing field, to make access easier for those at a disadvantage.

*sigh* I don't mind being an idealist, but sometimes it really hurts.

Hmm, what else? My mother is gone *whoopie* and that was the last of the house guests... Back to my regularly scheduled life.

The dog has learned to open the sliding glass doors, so we shut the door to that room when we went out to dinner... and came back to a big hole in the carpeting in the hallway. Less than 3 year old carpeting. *kill dog* Massively frustrating. I guess we're getting a dog door and a better fence ASAP. Like this week, hopefully. I cringe to think of how much that's going to cost.

Read an actual BOOK, as I've been coerced into joining a bookclub. Ann Packer's "The Dive From Clausen's Pier" which was fantastic. I was shocked that my other friend thought it was ok, but couldn't relate to it. Me, I want to run away from my life so badly it hurts sometimes.

Indulged in some shopping therapy... I bought a pair of Docs for the first time, ever. Plus some silly little rhinestone-encrusted flip-flops. And a wristwatch that would make loony_moony cringe and lostiawen laugh -- black leather with silver studs. Very pseudo-BDSM. It makes me happy.

Couples therapy seems to be helping some... I wonder how much my lack of hope/mood swings have to do with my hormones... Seems like every time I ovulate and don't get laid, I get severely depressed. Of course, I could be making that up entirely.

Going to try to churn out EE5 in the next month. It's going to be a big disappointment to the folks who were hoping for a steady increase in length and plot and romance, but it's probably best if I stop letting that paralyze me and just churn it out instead.

I think that's it...

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[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Ooh, a ficlet! No rush though - I think I owe about 3 people fics as well. *sigh* I mean well, I just get too busy. So I totally understand.

What's the new job?

*hug* thanks for the encouragement. Sometimes too much praise is as bad as too little.