whinging

[salixbabylon]

I almost signed up for vo_xmas and then I had a sudden moment of clarity when I realized that I haven't been able to write *anything* in months and months and I don't know if I'll ever be able to again, and clearly the fevers must have damaged my brain if I'm considering signing up to write a fic about god knows what in a pairing I haven't been able to touch in almost a year.

What if I never write again? WAH

OTOH - I feel like the drabbles worked well as a getting-back-to-writing exercise. OTOH, I'm still not really inspired. Although if heartofslash doesn't touch that Ewan/Eric one... Or maybe the Obi/Qui one...

*sigh*

And the only thing resembling fiction wandering around my head these days is massively angsty and NO SEX. :( What happened to me?

*shakes tiny fists at the universe*

Hopefully all this angst will go away when I fucking FINALLY get over this stupid illness. Right?

Comments

[alliwantisanelf.livejournal.com]

*co-miserates with you*

I'm sorry you're still feeling badly, luv. Being sick takes so much energy, it's no wonder your muses don't feel cooperative.

I can't get the boys to talk either. Or anything else for that matter. They sit and sulk in the corner and none of my usual threats seem to affect them in the least way.

Bastards. And I can't even claim to have been ill.

I thought about signing up too. Maybe we should, just to sort of force things to happen?

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

You sure seem to get them to talk in the pictures! That certainly counts as creativity and writing, in my eyes. :)

I'm still thinking about it. I'm just... blocked. Feel like I should be working on Real Life problems, I guess.

[soar38.livejournal.com]

I really hope so *looks horrified and hugs you tight*

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Oh, I won't stop writing forever. Just maybe not V/O anymore.

I dunno. Being sick always kind of makes me depressed, too -- ask me in 2 weeks. ;) *hugs*

[soar38.livejournal.com]

Ask, or just jump on your back and demand that you satisfy my cravings for good fic? LOL

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

I dunno, I might wrestle you to the floor and get too distracted to write anything for a while. ;)

[soar38.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, I can't honestly say I'd object to that ;-p

VO_Xmas

[justinetre.livejournal.com]

I almost signed up for [info]vo_xmas and then I had a sudden moment of clarity when I realized that I haven't been able to write *anything* in months

Aww, you poor sweetheart.. you should sign up! I have :)

hmm..how about this: I'll be your backup writer!
You sign up, and if it gets to a few days before the submission date and nothing is happening for you, then I'll write your secret santa?

Re: VO_Xmas

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

I'm still thinking about it - I just have a lot going on in my head these days. Thanks for the offer!

*hugs*

Re: VO_Xmas

[justinetre.livejournal.com]

no worries, tis an open-ended offer *squishies*

Re: VO_Xmas

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Aw, so sweet. *smooch*

[lennongirl.livejournal.com]

:(((

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

I know. :( Maybe I should write Ewan/Hayden instead?

[lennongirl.livejournal.com]

Ooohhhhhh... good idea, too :D

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

I'm probably the last person to offer you advice about losing your inspiration. At least for myself, I've come to the conclusion that I just need to make myself write, and if a challenge or a ficathon is what it takes to prod me, then I'll do it. May suck, but at least I'll be writing.

And the only thing resembling fiction wandering around my head these days is massively angsty and NO SEX. If it's what's there, I'd say write it, sex or no sex. Nothing wrong with a good painful angst-fest sometimes... I'd certainly read it, and I'm sure lots of other people would too. And if it gets the muses excited again. or even interested, then that's good 'cause maybe then they'll move on to smuttier things.

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

I think you're right - and I think today would be a good day to follow melacita's suggestion and spend that extra hour just writing.

*hug* Thanks for the encouragement to just write it out - I think you're right, it's clogging up the works and I should just do it. ;)

[heartofslash.livejournal.com]

By all means, take the Eric/Ewan and RUN with it. As you well know, I'm working on something else right now.

Could be just the thing to get you writing again. Think about it for a moment:

Heat. Sweat. Sun glistening on bronzed skin. The roar of the engines. The thrum between legs. Scottish and Aussie accents. Leather... excellent opportunity for some smoking porn, too.

Or forget Eric and Ewan fucking like madmen in the middle of the desert. Who needs it? Do the other thing you emtnioned, the angsty thing with the purdy Jedi.

Just look at him. Go on. Look at the icon. Gaze upon the Jedi goodness. He's lonely. He's confused. He's angsting about the no sex. He's needy, in need, needs your loving attention. And he's fucking hot.

Go for 'em.

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

*thinks*

*melts*

*puddle slowly reforms like in Terminator 3*

Well, all righty then. You make a pretty convincing argument. So: SW-angstfest, SW-smut-with-sileya, and E/E.

Yumminess is mine! :)

Have determined that I'm just *sad*, as prosaic as that sounds. Need to just make myself write anyway.