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salixbabylonAm having a massive attack of angst.
Of the four fics I wrote this summer, I liked two of them, thought they were ok. No feedback on them at all; people seem to like one of the other fics much more. *sigh* Whatever. I thought I wasn't doing this to please anyone but myself, so why should it bother me?
Plus, I've read some really good stories, especially in the last few weeks, things that make me sigh wistfully and wish I could write like that. But I don't/can't/haven't before. Somehow, instead of being inspired by good writing, I just feel like there's no point in even trying. Which is lame, I know.
I just feel so burned out. I wanted to work on the long story, while I was caught up in the whirlwind of the fest fics, and had a ton of ideas which I (thankfully) did jot down. But now... I'm not sure where it's going and I think it's too convoluted. I wanted story/pairing A to mesh with and lead into story/pairing B, but now I think A is just too much it's own thing and I feel like my brain is trying to write two stories simultaneously. And won't that be confusing to read, back and forth between one drama and the other? Even if they do overlap at times... Maybe I should split it into two stories. I don't know. Blech.
Maybe I'm just feeling burned out, still. School starts next week, and my husband's last day is Friday. I wish I could run away instead of dealing with my life for a while...
Of the four fics I wrote this summer, I liked two of them, thought they were ok. No feedback on them at all; people seem to like one of the other fics much more. *sigh* Whatever. I thought I wasn't doing this to please anyone but myself, so why should it bother me?
Plus, I've read some really good stories, especially in the last few weeks, things that make me sigh wistfully and wish I could write like that. But I don't/can't/haven't before. Somehow, instead of being inspired by good writing, I just feel like there's no point in even trying. Which is lame, I know.
I just feel so burned out. I wanted to work on the long story, while I was caught up in the whirlwind of the fest fics, and had a ton of ideas which I (thankfully) did jot down. But now... I'm not sure where it's going and I think it's too convoluted. I wanted story/pairing A to mesh with and lead into story/pairing B, but now I think A is just too much it's own thing and I feel like my brain is trying to write two stories simultaneously. And won't that be confusing to read, back and forth between one drama and the other? Even if they do overlap at times... Maybe I should split it into two stories. I don't know. Blech.
Maybe I'm just feeling burned out, still. School starts next week, and my husband's last day is Friday. I wish I could run away instead of dealing with my life for a while...
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Date: 2003-08-22 01:42 pm (UTC)"Put your pen down and step away from the slash!"
:) Which stories are you getting most of the feedback on? I have gotten a couple of positive mails about 2 of my stories, but that's about it. I decided that since I finally took the plunge and wrote something, that I would write to make myself happy and not worry about getting feedback on them. If I get creative feedback, it would be great, but I'm not counting on it. :)
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Date: 2003-08-27 04:48 pm (UTC)Most of the feedback has been on "Express Yourself," so far. It's the one I like the absolute least of what I wrote this summer. Ah well.
I'm looking forward to reading your pieces at the FQF when I get some time. Sorry I've been so busy lately!
That's a great attitude, and I agree - it should be just for yourself and not to make others happy. I guess I just need to work on that a little more!