massive whangst

[salixbabylon]

Yes it's true, Little Miss Sunshine Salix is having major angst today:

1) HP #7 in 4 days! OMFG! And I know JKR is going to murder someone I love. I don't know who, and I'm just totally in knots, alternately fretting over my beloved HarryRemusSnapeDracoRonHermioneForge and reminding myself that it's FICTION YOU DIMWIT.

And yet I'm still having chest-tightening anxiety. Probably doesn't help that I've been reading the books in every spare moment for the last two weeks and it's all I can think or dream about at night. OotP Harry is particularly difficult to relax after reading...

2) I sent out four query letters today to prospective publishers for my non-fiction book, "Wanton Hussy's Guide to Getting the Sex Life You've Always Wanted." Ever since I hit "send", I've had almost-but-not-quite full-out anxiety attacks - I feel nauseated and spastic and headachey and keep crying.

I need a drink or a hug or a smoke or a shag or something...


Edit:
Our Mother, who art in Scotland
Rowling be thy Name.
Thy books come, thy series be done,
in fandom as it is in canon.
Give us this day our daily slash
And forgive us our twincest and Mpreg,
as we forgive those who inspired us.
Lead us not into Mary Sue-dom,
and deliver us from het.
Amen.

For some reason I was remembering when I wrote this in 2003. Seems oddly appropriate again.

Comments

[ex-leianora730.livejournal.com]

hehe! Very amusing! shiny new canon, but fandom stops for no one! No one has to die in fandom land, right? :D

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

I need a drink or a hug or a smoke or a shag or something...

Why not all four? ((hugs))

[astrojen.livejournal.com]

Hugs and best of luck with the book, Sal.

Jen ;->

[dirty-smudge.livejournal.com]

Love the poem/prayer.
*hugs* sorry you can't have my drink and I don't smoke.
Um... *shags*... there you go.

She cannot kill my Severus! Anyone else, I'm fine with. Well, maybe I'd be sad if she killed the sexy Hermione.

"Wanton Hussy's Guide to Getting the Sex Life You've Always Wanted." ???
I would so read a book with that title.

[soar38.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[foxrafer.livejournal.com]

*fingers and toes crossed* I'm so excited for you. I'll be thinking positive thoughts and sending the publishers huge "you'd be crazy not to want this book" vibes *big hugs*

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Hehehe. In my personal fandom, Sirius is still very much alive and shagging. ;)

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

What do you think I am, some kind of hedonist?

Oh wait.

*goes to get all four* :)

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

:) *hugs* Thank you, sweetie!

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

*smooch* Thank you. :)

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

*smooches* Thank you! Today I feel a little less nauseated and a little more excited/hopeful. Hopefully the dynamic will keep going that direction. :)

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Hehehe! Well, I'll be sure to post when it's available for purchase. ;)

I have a horrible feeling my beloved Sevvie is going to get knocked off... I'll just keep praying. *g*

[miladyhawke.livejournal.com]

Aha, that prayer is genius!

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Hehe! Thank you!

[louhq.livejournal.com]

I am so with you on the stomach tightening anxiety. As Remus put it in my story "No Regrets", I've got 'unsettled feelings of anticipation and dread'.
And the Wanton Hussy's guide? I wants it, my precious, I wants it!

[louhq.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I finally got around to friending you on my LJ so you can read my NC-17 fics, if you want. Friend me?

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

It's good to know I'm not the only one in knots about The End. ;)

Yay! Hopefully publishers will feel the same way. Thanks for the vote of confidence!

Friended you back. Have been short on reading time lately, but I bookmarked your fics to read when I have a moment. *smooch*