RL update

[salixbabylon]

Life is complete crap lately. My girly parts are fucked up, my digestive parts are fucked up, my head is completely insane. My marriage is frustrating. I hate my family. Yes, I finally saw a therapist. And I know it will get better, but right now it's all just horrid.

Right. Enough whining.

Going to Big Sur with my best friend from college, for 4 days. Should be good, the visiting, the hiking, the not being around anyone stressful. Now all I have to do is not get confused about friend-love versus anything else-love with her again.

I'm not coming home until I finish writing the bondage fic. ;)

I keep writing long-winded "Author's Notes" at night, in my head, and then realize they're just apologies for not being a better writer and not so subtle pleas for attention. An author shouldn't apologize for a fic, imo. You write it, you put it out there, people like it or they don't. The end. If I was the Best Writer Ever, I'd have a Pulitzer or something. I don't, so what's with the apologetic ANs, right?

Christ. I'm not even making sense to myself anymore.

Comments

[amariel.livejournal.com]

Hope you have a good time in Big Sur. I've been there once and to visit a beautiful, restful place like that seems like a good thing when you're feeling bad.
I still have a small stone that a friend of mine picked up there long before I went. He told me that I would like it there, and I really did.
*sends good thoughts*

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

I had a really amazing time. Great conversation, reminders of why I live here in the redwoods, on the ocean, and it was just so good to run away from everything.

Thanks for the good thoughts -- how are you doing?