Moment of Pause
Feb. 19th, 2012 10:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
salixbabylon
I do, in fact, pretend to be normal a lot. Sometimes it's scary to be me. To have an unpopular opinion. To feel criticised or judged or found lacking. Inevitably, wearing the Normal!Salix suit starts to itch and hurt, and I have to take it off.
Truly, the best thing about getting older is that I finally, honestly, truly do not care quite so much what other people think. I do care, sometimes, when it's someone I love. I care enough to evaluate my actions and decide if they are in line with how I want to be.
But I also care enough about me and my happiness to just be me - flawed, weird, and genuine.
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Date: 2012-02-19 06:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-02-19 07:02 pm (UTC)But I'm glad you liked the pic!
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Date: 2012-02-19 08:36 pm (UTC)Not feeling as tightly bound by outside influences is one of the perks of getting older. I almost said "of growing up" but I don't really think I'm there yet. :)
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Date: 2012-02-19 10:47 pm (UTC)When I saw the banner? picture? I rolled my eyes, because, honestly, who sets the rules about being 'normal'? Whenever someone feels outside the norm, I'm sure there's about a million others just by his side. Everyone wants to be loved, everyone wants to be recognised, so everyone shouts, "Look at me, I'm so different!" Mostly people do that when they're young, so they wear all black, or walk around like dolls, or whatever. And it all comes down to the same thing, "I'm so different!"
Growing old gives you perspective, I think. Or maybe I hope. To my mind, either every one of us is 'different', or we're all 'normal', in all our different ways.
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Date: 2012-02-20 11:20 pm (UTC)And yes - the perspective of age proves that even the weirdest are normal in some ways, and even the most normal harbor secret oddities. :)
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Date: 2012-02-19 11:07 pm (UTC)I hope you're really enjoying your "you" time. :)
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Date: 2012-02-20 11:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-02-19 11:33 pm (UTC):D
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Date: 2012-02-20 04:50 am (UTC)(Note: I do not mean hurting those who love you by being uncaring. By the same token it does involve letting them have their own feelings and letting them not like every little thing you do w/o feeling you need to change.)
Some things about getting older are nice.
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Date: 2012-02-20 11:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-02-21 06:20 am (UTC)I try to guide my young co-workers and give them the benefit of my experience. One of them listened and took the week after Xmas off when I pointed out that not only would no one at the company reward her for her martyrdom of staying to finish a project her boss dropped, no one would even notice her effort! She took the week off. No one noticed. LOLOL
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Date: 2012-02-20 08:53 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2012-02-23 04:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-02-20 02:06 pm (UTC)*hugs and loves* I love you just the way you are!!!!
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Date: 2012-02-20 11:24 pm (UTC)