*wrinkles mouth and forehead in many possibly unattractive ways*
Yeah, I spent about five years trying to work out my passion and making a living and a nexus between the two. I knew I wasn't happy doing what I was doing. I loved helping people, but was bored to tears by the work in the end (and I no longer wanted to be told by bosses to help asshole clients). Some days I wanted to chew my arm off to escape.
So I set off in search, found a way I thought I could make a living and set about making it happen. But then you get down to the day to day activities involved... And I dunno...
I think you and I can both hope for more mental calm. We're both waaaay too hard on ourselves. My therapist would say 'inner critic' issues.
Beyond that... Health? Enough money to live on? Greatness? *sharp exhale*
So yeah, I'm not sure I believe passion leads to purpose. Or perhaps you have to divorce 'passion/purpose' from 'making a living'. When I wasn't trying to make a living from my passion, I appreciated it more.
Good luck on your own journey. And a relief from depression and anxiety sounds like a relief to me...but I hope you get the rest of your passions back again. It seems unfortunate to have to suffer in order to have your art.
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Date: 2013-09-09 06:26 am (UTC)Yeah, I spent about five years trying to work out my passion and making a living and a nexus between the two. I knew I wasn't happy doing what I was doing. I loved helping people, but was bored to tears by the work in the end (and I no longer wanted to be told by bosses to help asshole clients). Some days I wanted to chew my arm off to escape.
So I set off in search, found a way I thought I could make a living and set about making it happen. But then you get down to the day to day activities involved... And I dunno...
I think you and I can both hope for more mental calm. We're both waaaay too hard on ourselves. My therapist would say 'inner critic' issues.
Beyond that... Health? Enough money to live on? Greatness? *sharp exhale*
So yeah, I'm not sure I believe passion leads to purpose. Or perhaps you have to divorce 'passion/purpose' from 'making a living'. When I wasn't trying to make a living from my passion, I appreciated it more.
Good luck on your own journey. And a relief from depression and anxiety sounds like a relief to me...but I hope you get the rest of your passions back again. It seems unfortunate to have to suffer in order to have your art.