FIC: Too Much (EM/EB, NC-17), for 50kinkyways

[salixbabylon]

Title: Too Much
Author: salixbabylon
Fandom: RPS
Characters: Ewan McGregor/Eric Bana
Prompt: 19. Handcuffs
Word Count: 527
Rating: NC-17
Author's Notes: Sometimes things just go a little too far...


Too Much

Eric's on the floor, sweating and drooling around the rubber ball in his mouth. Something about it pushes Ewan's buttons; it's "too much," too submissive, wrong. At the same time something about it is making Ewan's cock throb and adrenaline flush through his body in a dangerous way. Dangerous because he's the dom here and he's supposed to be in control and he's about to fucking lose it.

He shouldn't have put the "real" steel handcuffs on Eric. They're not safe, not really. Not for Eric's wrists. And not for Ewan's sanity.

Sub headspace is something he's familiar with and loves relaxing and releasing himself into. Dom headspace, though, is risky because he has to stay grounded, give Eric the experience he's looking for, watch out for Eric's boundaries and his physical safety... and those cuffs rattling around Eric's wrists are making Ewan just want to fucking tear Eric apart.

He has to unbuckle the gag and ease the ball out of Eric's mouth. Not to give Eric a reprieve, but to give himself one.

And he's been teasing Eric's cock for a long while now, too. Eric's not protesting but Ewan knows the skin's got to be hypersensitive and almost a bit sore by now. Riding the edge of stimulation between pain and pleasure. Leaking and aching and only holding back from coming through sheer will.

Ewan stops.

Maybe he'll have Eric suck his cock. Get him off, so then he can focus. Maybe come all over Eric's face...

One look at Eric's glazed eyes and Ewan's want doubles, but so does his conscience shouting warnings at him. Eric's fucking gone - he's covered with sweat, shivering, drool drying on his face and neck, cock purple and throbbing as he tries so hard to hold back. He could probably come now with just one stroke of Ewan's fingertip along that vein there...

Ewan can't do this to him. He can't. Eric's his... lover. Not his slave. Not a toy. Right now Eric's just too far gone for Ewan to keep pushing him even further. Too submissive to hold in place while Ewan sinks his aching cock in Eric's mouth and fucks it until Ewan pulls out and shoots hot pearly spunk all over Eric's beautiful face...

No.

"What am I going to do with you?" Ewan muses aloud.

"Piss on me."

Only the fact that he sees Eric's lips moving convinces Ewan that he isn't hearing things. He blinks.

Fuck.

Eric kneels, eyes wide and full of something Ewan can't identify. It scares the holy shit out of him.

He stands for a moment, frozen between heartbeats. Trying to process that Eric's so fucking far gone that he just asked Ewan to piss on him.

His hands shake, his fucking knees shake, as he walks to the dresser to get the key. He motions Eric to stand up, then takes two tries to get the key in to unlock the cuffs. They fall heavily to the floor, jangling like Ewan's nerves, crashing to the ground as the world starts to sway and tilt.

"I can't," he mumbles, and sits heavily on the bed before he falls.

~end~

Comments

[illuminated-sin.livejournal.com]

HOT DAMN! They must have had some kinda serious play session going on to get that worked up! It didn't seem like any kind of organized, planned out scene, though, just sort of like Ewan was poking around trying out different things with Eric. Felt like Ewan was on a massive power trip there, eh? Jesus. At least he recognized his limits, though. Good job there for that, Ewan, but I felt bad for the both of them in the end. =/ Seems to me like it's not a good idea for them to switch in this relationship until Ewan gets a bit steadier in the role.

You wrote this very convincingly; it seemed quite realistic, and the pacing and descriptions of their thoughts, reactions, and emotions were spot-on. Really believable. Nicely done. :)

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Well, overall the boys have kind of ben working up to kinkier and kinkier things... I suppose we might have glossed over some of the details in this sequence.

Ewan was a little messed up at the end of this, yeah. Look for the post next MOnday to see how it's resolved. ;)

Thank you for the compliments - I'm glad it's coming across so realistically!

[illuminated-sin.livejournal.com]

Now I'll have to go poking around; this is the first fic I've ever read with Ewan.

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Yay! Another convert. Did you find the kinkfEEst through 50kinkyways then?

My partner-in-crime heartofslash and I have both written a few other fics with Ewan, but primarily this one.

[illuminated-sin.livejournal.com]

I don't know; it just scrolled across my friends page, honestly! LOL!

[brigantine1.livejournal.com]

Wow! Nice play on the light and dark of this situation. On the one hand, Ewan's losing his control, but on the other hand, he's aware enough, and loving enough, that he can force himself to pull both himself and Eric back from the edge of the abyss.

I mean honestly, imagining Eric in that condition, I can see what that'd do to a guy... or girl. Ahem. Yeah. The temptation to conquer entirely would be awesome, but the damage to their trust would be tough to repair. Good on Ewan! (Am hoping there will be lots of snuggling now, 'cause it looks like they both need it).

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Thank you for such a well-thought out compliment! Ewan relaly is struggling - I think there is something to be said for the issue of switching tkaing a toll, mentally.

Eric trussed up and aching for it would make *me* want to give it to him, for sure. ;)

[mlyn.livejournal.com]

Meep! Oh, this is good. Very interesting dynamics. You have me on the edge of my seat now!

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Next bit will be posted on MOnday, I promise. ;)

Glad we're keeping you, er, mentally aroused.

[astrojen.livejournal.com]

Wow, what an intense scene. But I love that Ewan was able to recognise that he was losing it and pull himself and Eric back. Wonderful stuff.

Jen ;->

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Ewan's an intense guy. But then, so is Eric. Sometimes the funny stuff gets tossed overboard and they get intense with each other.

Just wait til next week... *tease*

;)

[astrojen.livejournal.com]

Ooooh, you MINX!!! ;)

Jen ;->

[fanabana.livejournal.com]

Mmmm. Yes you can Ewan. :P

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

*tee hee* Just wait til you see that fallout from that refusal...

;)

[foxrafer.livejournal.com]

Wow, that was incredibly intense. Ewan's struggle is palpable, and you make me want to hug him for being able to pull himself back and not take things too far. Really great.

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that came across so realistically to you. Ewan struggled a lot with this scene, let me tell you.

As did I. ;)

[helena-s-renn.livejournal.com]

aw!!! no pissy?? *snorts*

i will say that your descriptions of eric's struggle and his body's responses are simply luscious, that whole 'eric is gone' paragraph. i was drooling, too.

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Eric being gone makes me weak in the knees too. Thank goodness Ewan is a more sensitive dom than I am, because I would have just fucked Eric til he he was a gibbering puddle of man.

Just wait until next week.. ;)