ok, I'm done reading DH
Jul. 23rd, 2007 12:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
salixbabylonbut no, this isn't a spoiler, because i'm not saying anything about the book's content at all.
i feel devastated and bruised and like someone i loved very much has died. i knew this would happen, that i'd be sad to have the series end, but i didn't know i'd feel so utterly *gutted*, and in a way that has nothing whatsoever to do with what characters lived or died.
maybe tomorrow i will bounce back.
tonight, i feel like i've lost one of my best friends.
and i feel like that's an insult to the best friend i lost two years ago. it's not meant to be. it's just that it's such a loss, and i was so unprepared for it to hurt like this. i feel like such an idiot for letting this series mean so much to me.
and yet, it's given me so much. one newspaper article in the SF Chron and a whole world opened up, one that got me writing and reading and connected to people in many fandoms, all over the world. how can i regret that?
whenever there is love, there is a possibility for pain. i've never chosen to go through life not loving, just to avoid the pain of loss.
but tonight, i just can't stop crying.
i feel devastated and bruised and like someone i loved very much has died. i knew this would happen, that i'd be sad to have the series end, but i didn't know i'd feel so utterly *gutted*, and in a way that has nothing whatsoever to do with what characters lived or died.
maybe tomorrow i will bounce back.
tonight, i feel like i've lost one of my best friends.
and i feel like that's an insult to the best friend i lost two years ago. it's not meant to be. it's just that it's such a loss, and i was so unprepared for it to hurt like this. i feel like such an idiot for letting this series mean so much to me.
and yet, it's given me so much. one newspaper article in the SF Chron and a whole world opened up, one that got me writing and reading and connected to people in many fandoms, all over the world. how can i regret that?
whenever there is love, there is a possibility for pain. i've never chosen to go through life not loving, just to avoid the pain of loss.
but tonight, i just can't stop crying.
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Date: 2007-07-23 02:56 pm (UTC)I can't believe there won't be any more HP and the fact that so many characters died makes it worse for me. I'd like to be more specific, but since there are no spoilers in your post I don't want to put any here in case people who haven't finished the book are reading.
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Date: 2007-07-23 11:04 pm (UTC)Thanks for not posting/commenting anyhting spoilery!
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Date: 2007-07-24 11:53 am (UTC)It's easier now coz more people have read the damn thing, but to start with it was really hard to keep it in.
My fault for being so determined to read it on the day it came out, I s'pose.