life, the universe, and babble...
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salixbabylonThis is a big babble of a post, about:
obsessive fangirly thoughts
It's just a weird level of obsession that I haven't really felt since early Harry Potter days. I go to sleep with "Carry On My Wayward Son" or "Bad Moon Rising" in my head and wake up with "Don't Fear the Reaper." It's funny – I'm not a music person, I don't pay attention to it, and I don't recognize old songs at all, but then when I listen to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ladykatiewench's Metallicar soundtrack (and other soundtracks to movies, too, not just Supernatural), I'm astounded at how my brain must have been paying attention unconsciously because I find myself thinking about certain scenes and bits of different episodes, and how the songs underscore certain themes or elements of a scene.
I find myself thinking about the boys a lot – I admit, Dean more than Sam – but all of them, really, even the side characters. I'll be cleaning house and wondering if they ever lived in a normal house at all. Did Sam ever have to mow the lawn? Did Dean ever mop a floor? Or was it all just hotels? But then they must have gone to school, so maybe they didn't move around that much, and isn't that awfully middle-class suburban of me, to assume that a "normal life" includes ownership of a house and a yard? Maybe they lived in apartments. Maybe they didn't finish high school – maybe Sam just tests well. (I'm willing to ignore everything I know about Stanford and pretend they'd let in a really smart but poor kid.)
What was their life like as kids? What would that life be like? I know there's a comic book and magazines that probably answer some of these questions, but at the moment I'm having fun wondering about different possibilities and seeing how they match up with the characters I've come to know so far.
It's not dissimilar to the way I focused and obsessed on Remus and his missing 13 years, or what Sirius' life was like growing up, or what Severus' thoughts were alone in his rooms after a day of teaching bratty students.
I love sinking my mental teeth into characters, shaking them up, seeing what it's like inside their heads. What do *they* think about when they're washing the dishes? What makes them hurt inside? Do they feel lonely or content in solitude? What drives them, what do they need, what would make them happy?
And then for fuck's sake, why do they never ever get it? Authors are sadists, I swear.
(Maybe that's why I write porn – everyone hooks up at the end and it's always a happy ending, literally or euphemistically. *g*)
more music
And I also keep having these urges to take a road trip, since I'm working from home and technically could, except I fucking HATE driving, and the last time I drove from Ohio to California, I swore I'd never do it again. I'm just not that fond of America. And it's really big. And kind of boring. Good for clearing out your head though, and seeing what's inside you... I blame the music. *g*
Which also remind me of how weird the music component is, again. It's all these songs I ought to have known, growing up in the 70s and 80s, but my parents never listened to this kind of music, so while songs sound familiar, I'm always surprised when I glance at the playlist – "Oh, that's by the Rolling Stones/Led Zeppelin/etc." I never went through the classic rock stage so this is all kind of new to me, which is odd.
more fandom/writing stuff
I'm watching one episode per day (except on the days I don't watch any, or the days I just *have* to know what happens next and watch two or three), but at this rate I'm going to be caught up in about three weeks. Just in time for the big break. It's going to drive me insane. Good thing I have all this new fic to read, and one to write for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
spn_comingclean.
I'm so amazed and giddy at the reception "The Seven Shirts" is getting. I mean, not to be immodest, but *I* liked it and thought it came out well, but it's just a little piece of fluffy smut. After many years of not having much attention, I had forgotten how wonderful it feels to get so many hits and nice comments. Makes it all feel worthwhile. :)
life, particularly work-life
Life is pretty damn good - not just fangirly thoughts and stuff either.
I have a new client for coaching, which rocks. I've also had a few people stop me and ask "So, what exactly do you do? I don't get it." Which has made me clarify what my intentions are, which is good for everyone.
When I say "sexuality coaching," people tend to think that means I'm a kama sutra wiz and want to talk all about finding your g-spot and giving great blowjobs. But if I say "relationship coaching", it sounds like marriage therapy. Really, what I do is talk to people (listen, actually, and ask questions) about whatever issues they find themselves struggling with which are manifesting in their sexual relationships. Most often we work on 1) figuring out what you want, 2) improving/recreating body image so you feel sexy, and/or 3) improving communication skills.
I have had a half-dozen clients, sometimes overlapping, sometimes not. I really need more, and I need to get out from under my bushel and let my little light shine. *g* There are so many unhappy people out there and I would love to help them, and I think almost everyone has the power to choose to make their life better, step by step. When I'm doing what I love, I really really *really* love my life. :)
And I'm also going to be publishing more erotica and *finally* my non-fiction "Wanton Hussy's Guide to Getting the Sex Life You've Always Wanted" this year. Maybe even a novel, possibly co-written (don't want to out my fellow co-writer just yet). I don't want to try and make a living of it or have to think of writing as work, because that sucks all the fun out of writing. Right now, I'm trying to create a life that feels more like play and less like work, because that's the kind of thing that depresses me, and what's what happened to my January/February.
I'm also going to be starting up my "Wanton Wednesdays" free call-in sessions soon, and would love to have people I know on the line - moral support for me, amusement for you! If you're interested, let me know – if you're on my newsletter list, details will be posted there this week. SIGN UP HERE
(And if you have any interest in coaching, I'd be willing to give any of you the "friends rate," since I could still use some practice - you'd be doing me a favor!)
Also, since so many of my clients have body image issues (and goddess knows that's something I can relate to 100%), I'm also putting together some guided meditation mp3s, which I'll be selling on my website for a few dollars. I love listening to those kind of things and I hope others will, too.
Ok, so that's fangirly moments, work-life update, plans for book publishing, and I guess that's everything in my universe. Weather is great, dog is good, husband is ok aside from a brief medical thing this morning. Today is newsletter day, so I'd best get to it!
*smooches*
obsessive fangirly thoughts
It's just a weird level of obsession that I haven't really felt since early Harry Potter days. I go to sleep with "Carry On My Wayward Son" or "Bad Moon Rising" in my head and wake up with "Don't Fear the Reaper." It's funny – I'm not a music person, I don't pay attention to it, and I don't recognize old songs at all, but then when I listen to
ladykatiewench's Metallicar soundtrack (and other soundtracks to movies, too, not just Supernatural), I'm astounded at how my brain must have been paying attention unconsciously because I find myself thinking about certain scenes and bits of different episodes, and how the songs underscore certain themes or elements of a scene.I find myself thinking about the boys a lot – I admit, Dean more than Sam – but all of them, really, even the side characters. I'll be cleaning house and wondering if they ever lived in a normal house at all. Did Sam ever have to mow the lawn? Did Dean ever mop a floor? Or was it all just hotels? But then they must have gone to school, so maybe they didn't move around that much, and isn't that awfully middle-class suburban of me, to assume that a "normal life" includes ownership of a house and a yard? Maybe they lived in apartments. Maybe they didn't finish high school – maybe Sam just tests well. (I'm willing to ignore everything I know about Stanford and pretend they'd let in a really smart but poor kid.)
What was their life like as kids? What would that life be like? I know there's a comic book and magazines that probably answer some of these questions, but at the moment I'm having fun wondering about different possibilities and seeing how they match up with the characters I've come to know so far.
It's not dissimilar to the way I focused and obsessed on Remus and his missing 13 years, or what Sirius' life was like growing up, or what Severus' thoughts were alone in his rooms after a day of teaching bratty students.
I love sinking my mental teeth into characters, shaking them up, seeing what it's like inside their heads. What do *they* think about when they're washing the dishes? What makes them hurt inside? Do they feel lonely or content in solitude? What drives them, what do they need, what would make them happy?
And then for fuck's sake, why do they never ever get it? Authors are sadists, I swear.
(Maybe that's why I write porn – everyone hooks up at the end and it's always a happy ending, literally or euphemistically. *g*)
more music
And I also keep having these urges to take a road trip, since I'm working from home and technically could, except I fucking HATE driving, and the last time I drove from Ohio to California, I swore I'd never do it again. I'm just not that fond of America. And it's really big. And kind of boring. Good for clearing out your head though, and seeing what's inside you... I blame the music. *g*
Which also remind me of how weird the music component is, again. It's all these songs I ought to have known, growing up in the 70s and 80s, but my parents never listened to this kind of music, so while songs sound familiar, I'm always surprised when I glance at the playlist – "Oh, that's by the Rolling Stones/Led Zeppelin/etc." I never went through the classic rock stage so this is all kind of new to me, which is odd.
more fandom/writing stuff
I'm watching one episode per day (except on the days I don't watch any, or the days I just *have* to know what happens next and watch two or three), but at this rate I'm going to be caught up in about three weeks. Just in time for the big break. It's going to drive me insane. Good thing I have all this new fic to read, and one to write for
spn_comingclean.I'm so amazed and giddy at the reception "The Seven Shirts" is getting. I mean, not to be immodest, but *I* liked it and thought it came out well, but it's just a little piece of fluffy smut. After many years of not having much attention, I had forgotten how wonderful it feels to get so many hits and nice comments. Makes it all feel worthwhile. :)
life, particularly work-life
Life is pretty damn good - not just fangirly thoughts and stuff either.
I have a new client for coaching, which rocks. I've also had a few people stop me and ask "So, what exactly do you do? I don't get it." Which has made me clarify what my intentions are, which is good for everyone.
When I say "sexuality coaching," people tend to think that means I'm a kama sutra wiz and want to talk all about finding your g-spot and giving great blowjobs. But if I say "relationship coaching", it sounds like marriage therapy. Really, what I do is talk to people (listen, actually, and ask questions) about whatever issues they find themselves struggling with which are manifesting in their sexual relationships. Most often we work on 1) figuring out what you want, 2) improving/recreating body image so you feel sexy, and/or 3) improving communication skills.
I have had a half-dozen clients, sometimes overlapping, sometimes not. I really need more, and I need to get out from under my bushel and let my little light shine. *g* There are so many unhappy people out there and I would love to help them, and I think almost everyone has the power to choose to make their life better, step by step. When I'm doing what I love, I really really *really* love my life. :)
And I'm also going to be publishing more erotica and *finally* my non-fiction "Wanton Hussy's Guide to Getting the Sex Life You've Always Wanted" this year. Maybe even a novel, possibly co-written (don't want to out my fellow co-writer just yet). I don't want to try and make a living of it or have to think of writing as work, because that sucks all the fun out of writing. Right now, I'm trying to create a life that feels more like play and less like work, because that's the kind of thing that depresses me, and what's what happened to my January/February.
I'm also going to be starting up my "Wanton Wednesdays" free call-in sessions soon, and would love to have people I know on the line - moral support for me, amusement for you! If you're interested, let me know – if you're on my newsletter list, details will be posted there this week. SIGN UP HERE
(And if you have any interest in coaching, I'd be willing to give any of you the "friends rate," since I could still use some practice - you'd be doing me a favor!)
Also, since so many of my clients have body image issues (and goddess knows that's something I can relate to 100%), I'm also putting together some guided meditation mp3s, which I'll be selling on my website for a few dollars. I love listening to those kind of things and I hope others will, too.
Ok, so that's fangirly moments, work-life update, plans for book publishing, and I guess that's everything in my universe. Weather is great, dog is good, husband is ok aside from a brief medical thing this morning. Today is newsletter day, so I'd best get to it!
*smooches*
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Date: 2008-03-12 06:38 pm (UTC)As for the music, I find I'm becoming more fond of 'classic' rock as I get older. My tastes have broadened since my teenage years. I was quite a narrow-minded little goth back then. ;) If it feels good then listen to it.
Roadtrips....I love them! My husband and I took a roadtrip through Arizona and up to Vegas and the Grand Canyon about ten years ago. I'd love to do that again. In the meantime, we've been doing driving holidays in France over the last few years. This year we're taking three weeks and heading down further south. I'm hoping to have my full licence by then so I can help Brian out with the driving. Fingers crossed!
Glad to hear the coaching is going well. I have enjoyed reading the Wanton Hussy newsletters and they have encouraged me to think more positively about myself. I'd take part in the call-in sessions if I was over your side of the pond. Keep at it, you're doing great!
Jen ;->
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Date: 2008-03-13 01:19 am (UTC)It's nice to hear someone else's musical range is broadened, too. I mean, I do still hate some genres with a passion, but overall, most stuff is ok. I'm growing to appreciate the "classics."
I would dearly love to go on a road trip through the UK or some part of it. I suppose if I could find interesting things to do here in the US, a road trip might be all right... Historically they've involved visits to relatives I didn't know and/or massive life-upheaval. Taking one for fun, as a grown up, might be cool. ;)
yay - glad you're benefiting from the newsletters - that's excellent feedback and definitely my intention. I'd love to have you on the call, but alas, 6pm my times is... 2am for you? Not so fun. Maybe when I'm in the UK this summer, I'll do one from there.
As always, thank you for the encouragement. I really couldn't do this without people cheering me on. *smooch*
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Date: 2008-03-13 12:37 am (UTC)Glad to see you're back in the saddle, babe! Attitude is half the battle.
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Date: 2008-03-13 01:25 am (UTC)(Also, I'm not avoiding your emails, I've just been insanely busy and can't think straight. Or bent. Just all scribbled. *g*)