Moment of Pause

[salixbabylon]

I've been thinking about this every since I saw it. I don't know what my goals are, where I see myself in five years, what my purpose is, what my passion is. And that makes me really super anxious.

I mean, I'm very content with life. I can't think of much more to ask for. I feel good about that, yet I also think it's always good to have something to be moving toward. I don't know what my passion is anymore. my writing mojo and sex drive seem to have gone the way of my general depression and anxiety, probably casualties of Prozac. IDK...

Comments

[elfscribe5.livejournal.com]

Hello dear -- yes, we can be very hard on ourselves. Life is continually changing, boy have I found that out in the past 2 years, so whatever is happening now won't be what is happening 5 years from now, for good or ill, whether you do anything about it or not. I remember actually thinking out loud that I was content with my life about 2 years ago and then I got smacked upside the head and knocked sideways. I've been trying to regain equilibrium ever since. So, if you're content -- enjoy it. Enjoy all that makes you content. I've also found life is about finding a balance between all the things we must do and things we want to do. But it sounds as if you do feel something is missing -- you've talked about losing the writing mojo and it sounds like you want it back. It sounds like your contentedness is also a bit boring to you. Maybe it's time for us both to explore new things, or to explore things we always wanted to, but haven't. Make a list of those and begin to do them. If you want to write, set aside an hour every day and write whatever takes your fancy. Don't worry about it being the Great American Novel or whatever. I had some good luck with timed writing with friends. I'll send you a note. Hugs!!

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

True enough - 5 years will bring all kinds of unexpected adventures, no matter what I do (or don't).

The weird thing about peace/equilibrium is that it's what we all strive for, right? Enlightenment, peace, contentment. Yet at the same time, we're told to always be striving for more, working toward a goal. Those are contradictory.

I do feel a bit is missing... but maybe it's just habit? Maybe contentment is okay. I'm honestly not sure. here's the line between content and bored? ;)

I do like the reminder to explore some new things. Time to get out of my rut and shake life up a little bit. *hug*