guilt

[salixbabylon]

I know this is dumb, but I keep thinking it, so I thought maybe if I wrote it down I could let it go.

My reallyreally good friend (college roommate, person I've probably known longest, ever) has been struggling with depression and some other problems. About a month ago her family became worried that she might try to kill herself and put her in a mental hospital for a week. I've been calling her at least weekly, if not more, and after not being able to get ahold of her for a week, I called her mom's house and learned that she's back there again.

And I just feel like if I had listened more, if I'd called her back faster, of I had fucking just LISTENED instead of suggesting ways to get out of her head and tried to help, if I'd made good on my offer for her to come up here and visit and get away from everything...

I know it's her life. But I just feel like I should have done more.

*sigh*

Comments

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

*hug* Thank you for everything you said - it really does help to read a "professional opinion" on the subject.

I guess I have issues because I've always dealt with depression my whole life, but apparently not to that degree. I think I made the mistake of thinking that what helps me would help her, and that seems to nt be the case.

I am glad she's getting the help she needs, and will try to stay in contact, through letters now and phone calls later... (Do you know if they'll pass them along? Should I not seal the letters so that can be read by staff to make sure I'm not saying horrid things?)

*hug* again and a *smooch* for good measure. :)

[bitofaspaz.livejournal.com]

Letters will likely be opened if she's not deemed competent/capable of managing her own affairs. At least that's what we do... Good luck. She's lucky to have a friend who is able to be as supportive and concerned as you right now.

xxx ooo

J.

[salixbabylon.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the answer about the letters. And for both listening and sharing. *hug*